Dimitrius R. Rue
October 27, 1975 - August 29, 2013

"I had heard that my former classmate had passed away and I am saddened by this confirmation. Dimetrius was a gentle soul who had a difficult childhood. I knew him as a transfer student to my 6th (or 7th) grade class in Salisbury, MD. Ramona... I am so sorry you lost your dad and that you do not have his support and love. No doubt, he is watching over you and hope you feel that. "

"...Hey, dad. It's me. I know this is more for comforting other people who knew you, but I figure I'd drop something here again since I've realized it's been over 10 years since you died. I don't really go by Skanda anymore. I'm Ramona now. I've even been on HRT for over two years now. I don't know how you would've reacted to this news were you alive, but I like to think you'd be happy for me. You always made a point to tell me you loved me at every opportunity. I've even got a boyfriend. Ben. I wish you could meet him, he's really nice. Now that I think about it, he might be a little like you, but I've decided just now that I'm not gonna think about that any further. I made it into a public highschool, and even graduated without too much issue, but college didn't turn out so great. I crashed and burned basically instantly. I'm trying to find work regardless, but it's not going well. I've got other friends too. They're really nice, and we have fun together. They're people like me. They're autistic, they're trans, they're total nerds. I bet you would like them too. Or at least some of them. One of them is a bit of a jerk, but I promise she means well. Mei Mei passed pretty soon after you did. Maybe you two met up, if there's something after death. I bet she'd have loved to see you again. I'm sorry I couldn't have been there for you. I know I shouldn't blame anything on myself. I mean, I was 12 years old when you died. But I can't help but wish there was more I could've done. Maybe I could've insisted on hanging out with you more. God, I didn't think I'd get emotional about this. I just. You had the biggest heart in the family. No matter how little we got to see you, you never stopped loving us any less. Well, I love you too, dad. I'm sorry I barely ever said it before. Maybe I'll come back here and give you more updates. I don't know. My memory was never very good. But I'll try to get around to it someday."

"Dimitrius/Jim/Craqr/Mainline... you were a brother and so much else. I miss you, you neurotic steve carelll lookin son of a gun "

"He never even got a full obituary, and what he does have doesn?t mention his kids, and his mother LOST the damn urn. You deserved better, dad. I?m sorry. I?m not going to forget you. "