"I miss my mother every day every hr. every sec. its hasn't been the same since shes been gone everything is different now nothing is good nothing feels good anymore I havnt seen my mom in over 7 months now shes gone and I will never see her agin. I feel guilty because I never had enough money to fly and go see her or take care of her in seattle I didn't even have money to fly down & go to her funeral smh my mom suffered for colon cancer for 4years she put in a good fight she tried to stay alive aslong as she could for her kids & grand kids but the cancer just took over her. npw every morning I wake up the first though in my mind is that my mother is dead the last thought in my mind b4 I go to sleep is that my mother is dead. i wish i could've had the chance to see her one more time or even just talk to her one last time on the phone now its official ive truly lost everything in my life now & i honestly don't even know why im still here. but atleast my mother isn't in pain or suffering anymore that's the only good thing that as come out of this. "