Jacqueline Rose Banks
November 12, 1935 - November 27, 2008

"~*~ Hello beautiful, whats going on? I just got done doing something special for all of us that love you so we can continue to talk to you.(do a whole lot of typing) I hope that everyone likes it I know you will cause its all about you babe:) Anyway I have been doing alot of thinking lately and I have made up my mind to take another step into making a better future for me and your "lil baby" I know that you have already heard me talking about it so I just want you to know that I am really serious. Time for me to get it together so I can be the best mommy I can (like you) and to take care of mommy the way she took care of you after poppy left us! She deserves it nanny, I know you are probably upset with me because of what happened between her and I today its just so hard we are both stressed and still feeling alot of hurt so instead of us comforting each other and being there for one another we are turning against each other and I want you to know that I dont like it one bit and I apologize for my words and actions today! I know you are disapointed and I dont blame you one bit cause I was way outta line! Its just so hard to deal with mommy sometimes gram and you know that just as well as I do. I dont want to fight with her and I try really hard not to... I dunno im just babbling right now. I will be better with her I promise, I cant imagine the pain that she is going through from losing you, it has to be really bad because I hurt terribly and ive only known you half the time she has! Im sorry again nanny and I love you! Kiss poppy for me. GoodNight ~*~"

"What's up with these crazy girls writing to you everynight - don't they know that all they have to do is talk and you'll hear them? And it's much easier than typing! lol SHHHHH! I'm one of them! Just wanted to say I love you and miss you once again. I Want to get as many I love you's in as I can because I know that this lighting of the candles won't last too much longer. So, goodnight my dearest mother - I love you and dad so much!"

"Nanny, you will be missed very much. I Love you and Miss you bunches. Love always and forever Renee. A.K.A (Chops)"

"My Sister My Heart, You have been the one person whom I could always come to when I needed guidance and comfort. You were always there when I needed a friend and you never turned me away. I will always think of you as my truest confidante and will sorely miss you until we are together again in the presence of GOD our Saviour and Jesus His Son. You have finished your work here on Earh and have earned your rest.Ilove you now and forever. Your brother Mike."

"Grandma, imma miss you so much,and i want you to know that you were like a mother to me and im grateful for all you have done for me...i know you are in a better place and much happier now that you are with grandpa but your purpose was served and you were so special to us all and your memory will never be forgotten..i love you gram' so much and miss you!!! love always and forever , lil joe... p.s will you relay this message to grandpa for me? i think of you all the time and wish you were here today,but now i know all your pain is gone..you left a powerful spirit upon me and turned me into a young man of wisdom and i want to let you know there could never be another you and grandma and i love you grandpa and miss you now your both free how you always said... love always and forever grandpa's lil joe...missin you "

"i love you and i miss you very much."

"Why is this so hard for me? Im trying so hard to be strong. Im not sapposed to be crying like a baby. I want to start by saying that Im sorry. Im sorry for be selfish and missing you. Im sorry messing everything up. As I wipe my eyes our time together flashes before me. The many times you came to visit me when I was away. You had a way of making me feel loved. You have always been there for me when I needed you. You are a special person in my life. Im just sorry that I never told you just how much u mean to me. I cant think of words that can explain just how much I love and will miss you. Rest in peace. I know you will, you've earned it. "For none of us lives to themself,and no one dies to themself for if we live, we live to the Lord;and if we die we die to the lord. therefore, weather we live or die we are the Lords" (Romans 14:7,8)"

"MOM ILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.... MOMMYS BOY#1"

"Hey there Nanny! I told you that i'd be back =) so by reading all of your lit candles I see that everyone likes my song to you! Yay! I love it and it really does describe a lot of my feelings toward you. I'm sure that you have already listened to it. I hope that you liked it! I just got off the phone with aunt lisa. We were saying how you were probably kickin us all in the ass right now cause we have been typing to you. You are probably saying just talk and I can hear you! Don't waste your time typing! I can already hear ya saying that! But I like typing and sometimes it's easy to say something when you type it then when you actually say it. At least for me. I just wrote you a christmas card. I am going to get it laminated and bring it to you. Jeese I must be loved tonight. Daddy just called me. Everyones calling me. I love it! Daddy told me to tell you that he's thinking of you and that he loves you. Daddy got a fooseball table and Deb and I always beat him and his friend Josh so he asked if I wanted to come over tomarrow night to defend our title. Haha that was too funny. But anyways, I love you more than anything in this world as I tell you every night. But I am going to go. I have to work tomarrow at 7 am and you know me with getting up early... but I actually son't sleep as much as I use to! So goodnight and sweet dreams Nanny. I love you and miss you so much! Tell Poppy goodnight and that I love and miss him too. You two better behave yourselves up there! I can only imagen what your doing. It has been 8 yrs... and that's why I love you =) cause you're crazy! But I am really going to go this time. I love you and I will see you in my dreams. Goodnight nanny. I love you. "

"~*~ Hello again sweetcheeks, couldnt sleep so I thought I would come back and talk to you for a lil while. I am sorry to keep you awake but its not the first time and it sure wont be the last!! I remember when I was younger and couldnt sleep you would let me curl up on your lap in the recliner and we would do your find a words together! I still use that lil secret you taught me about the easy way to find the words... this is really hard for me nanny, I dont feel complete, its scary, I was telling Joe that even after seeing you laying there resting and then lowering you down to poppy this all still seems so unreal to me. Its really scary for me, this feeling. I dunno maybe I am in denial right now. It gets greater later right babes? Well love GoodNight again I love you and I will be there to see you on Wed... I love you and miss you so much, give poppy double kisses tonight! ~*~"

"~*~ I am still a wrekk today!! Didnt get much sleep last night...came home early too,didnt even get drunk! Didnt want too all I wanted was to lay by you but, I couldnt. So I came home and sat alone and cried and cried, I know that you was looking at me telling me to stop it! Aunt Lisa even said so ,But I still couldnt help it....(see crying is like taking your soul to the laundromat) it makes me feel better to let it all out then to just keep holding in the pain im feeling. People keep telling me that it gets easier with time, well we will have to see about that now wont we? I love you nanny!~*~"

"Nanny, I don;t know what to say. I can't beleave that this day actually came. It was so hard for me today to talk to you without you being able to respond back and feel me holding your hand. I miss when u you use to squeeze it so hard you made it turn colors! But I know that you knew I was right by your side every step of the way. You looked absolutely gorgeous today. Now I knoe where I get me good looks from =) I love you more than anything and miss you like crazy already. As I said before, this message makes me feel like I am actually talking to you and that's why I go on forever cause I hvae so much to say to you. Last night I kept telling everyone how exited I was to see you today because it was going to be like you were still here. I know that you are always going to be with me no matter where I go but it's just hard to face reality sometimes. You are an amazing person both on the inside and out. I know that we are one day going to meet again. You're as free as a bird now nanny! Tell poppy I love him and miss him more than words can say and that he better take good care of my nanny. I know he will though, he always did! I'm going to miss you sooo much you don't even know this is deffinaltey going to be hard but I know with you and poppy above me I will make it through. I love you nanny and always will. You will never be forgotten. You resting in peace now, feeling know pain, and with the man of your dreams. I am sure that you couldn't be any happier right now. Well im going to bed. I love you and goodnight. I miss you tons! I will be back to talk to you tomarrow. I love you."

"NEVER FORGOTTEN"

"hey lovey!! once again I can't stay and chat because i'm at work but I pretty muich just came to tell you that I love you and miss you! sooo much! talk to you later love"

"The Yarabek Family sends its prayers and sympathy to Lisa Smith's Family."

"~*~ Hello sunshine!!!! Ive missed you sorry havent been by to see you in a few days we lost power for a lil while and last night I was so tired when I got home from work that I just passed out. So how have things een with you and poppy? I miss you both so much, I just wanted to sop by and tell you that and that I love you too. GoodNight sweetcheeks! ~*~"

"Nanny, In the last year we got so close, and to be totally honest, i dnt think tht i'd miss you this much. I didnt want to miss u this much, just because it hurts beyond words. What i miss the most is coming to visit you, and id say, "hey beautiful!" And you'd answer back sayin, "Hey gorgeous." I miss you kisses, i miss your smile, i miss ur jokes, and i miss ur hugs. But i know tht you're with poppy now, and you couldnt be happier. You were the strongest woman i've ever known. I love you beautiful!!!! "

"~*~ Hey beautiful, how you feelin? I just got home from work and im beat!! I only wish for the energy that you have. Aunt Lisa is silly right? Why do these silly girls keep writing to you? Duh... cause we LOOVEEEE you so much:) she says for us to just talk and you can hear us but I think I like this better even if I do have to do a whole lot of typing:) you are worth it buttercup! I guess you are going to get two Christmas trees this year, you love that huh? Always said two is better than one and one is better than none (smile) I miss you so much, I am still having a hard time believing that this is real, I just want to wake up from this nightmare.... I want to come see you and curl up next to you in the bed... I miss that, I told Joe that if he cant ever find me to come to the cemetery and ill be there with a blanket laying next to you! He told me poppy will be upset because he wants you all to himself now. But dont worry ill still sneak in the bed with you even if I have to curl up in between the both of you:)well nanny im going to try and get some rest tonight, I never did fall right to sleep after I got done talkin to you last night, fell out at like 6am! I just cant sleep:( I am going to try tonight though cause I have to get up extra early in the morning to put your "lil baby" on the bus! I love you and miss you so much, I will talk to you soon ok. Give poppy love for me! ~*~ GoodNight.... Muahz"

"One more thing. I just read the what Jackie wrote to you and she is getting you a Christmas tree as well. I didn't know that. Well it doesn't hurt to have two. One can be for you and one can be for Poppy =) Okay I just wanted to tell you that. I loveeeee you!"

"i will always remember aunt jackie coming up to maine and spoiling me rotten. i was always so happy to see you i will never forget that beautiful smile of yours!!! i will miss you dearly! love you, Rachael"

"~*~ Hey gorgeous, its me again:) told mommy today how we talked last night about those things... told her you was gonna kick her butt too! Then I told her I wanted to come see you tomorrow too so we will be there in the early afternoon ok? So how have you been lately? You better be behaving yourself..... ok I crossed the line with that one didnt I? So I was thinking about doing christmas dinner the nanny way:) so that means im going to be the one cooking cause mommy would be lost with the ham (smile) its never going to be the same and noone is EVER going to be able to cook like you but I sure am going to try my hardest. I learned from the best so it cant be that bad right babes? I sure wish we were going to be spending it together though nanny. Would you like me to bring you a plate? I am going to make your baked mac and cheese just the way you taught me! Aint gonna have nanny tlc but it will be good. Thought about doin yams with brown sugar and marshmallows too... what you think bout that? Joe made me promise I would put the pineapples with the cherries in the middle:) I told him yes, just dont know what im going to do about the gravy yet I never could get that right. Maybe I will let mommy do that cause she knows about the gravy. Im going to use the red skin potatoes too, now what am I missing? Yup you got it nanny a vegetable well defidently cant do your green beans so maybe just some sweet corn with butter. And of course pie... oh wait how could I almost forget your "lil babys" salad with nannys special ranch? She would have been upset huh? Maybe ill make brownies too I dont know yet depends on my budget next week. Gotta get your tree too cant forget that. I miss you nanny and I love you so much, I am going to try and get some rest now because I have to get up in the morning with your "lil baby" and get her pretty for school:) love you GoodNight give poppy kisses! ~*~"

"Nanny, nanny, nanny. You are all I thought about today. It was my first day back to school and everyone was coming up to me and was like ohh But as I said to you beforemy gosh are you okayy?! blah blah blah.I know that I am going to be ok with you and poppy above me. These last couple days have been tough. I gota say. I keep listening to that song you loved but josh turner. Me and God. and now it is you and God. He's got you all healed up and better than ever! what a good man! I can't wait until I can meet him and be with you again.I just wanted to tell you that I love you forever and always and I will continue to write to you everyday if you don't mind? just let me know whenever you want me to stop! Oh and by the way I want you to listen to this song when you a chance. Its by Miley Cyrus and the name of it is Bottom of the Ocean. It reminds me of you. I miss you bunches nanny! your keeping my head held high thats for sure. Well, I hope to see you tonight! Everytime I close my eyes all I can see is you I love it! I knew that you weren't really gone and you never will be. I love you more than anything and I don't know why this is so hard for me to get over because I should be happy that you are happy. I know that you are. Well, I am happy when you see tears come out of my eyes they are tears of joy and they are all for you. You have probably seen a lot of them lately but when I cry its only because I miss you and Love you and can't exept the fact that I have to wait so long until I can snuggle up with you and watch westerns. Ecspessially with christmas coming up. Its going to be hard. What do you want for christmas? You gotta let me know anything you want i'll get it for you no matter what it is! Well it was amazing talking to you again. Good night I will see in a little while when I go to sleep. I love you and miss you unconditionally! You're amazing and I hope I become just like you! Goodnight Nanny sweet dreams. I love you."

"I love you grandma.. I will never forget you.."

"NANNY, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND ALTHOUGH WE ALL KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE NOW AND POPPY IS GOING TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOU JUST LIKE OLD TIMES, WE STILL MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU UNCONDITIONALLY. YOU'RE MY HERO, INSPIRATION, AND THE BEST NANNY ANYONE COULD EVER ASK FOR. IT MAKES ME FEEL ALOT BETTER KNOWING YOU AND POPPY ARE BOTH WATCHING OVER ME, IT'S DEFFINATELY NOT GOING TO BE THE SAME WITH OUT YOU NANNY. I LOVE YOU WITH EVERY LITTLE BIT OF MY HEART AND MISS YOU O PIECES. LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER YOUR ONE AND ONLY KATHRYN MAE!"

"Dana , Brittany, Lisa and the rest of the family. I am sorry for the loss of your loved one. May precious memories fill your heart and ease your pain.. "

"Hey Nanny!!! are you sick og me yet? I doubt it!! how could you be right?? Well i basically came on to tell you that we got talkin about memories today- about all the crazy stupid things we used to do and all I could think about was you. Nanny this is really hard. Everyone keeps telling me that it get's better with time but I feel like it's getting harder. I don't like this at all. I miss you soo much nanny! I just want to squeeze you one more time, and during that hug I would be sure to tell you exactly how much you mean to me. How much you have inspired me. How much your words mean to me.I remember when I went down to Florida and I used to call you every single day just to tell you how much I loved you and missed you and you promised me that you were gonna spend the summer with me down in Fort Lauderdale(idk how to spell that). But I didn't want to wait that long to see you so I cried to come home remember? That's kinda how I feel now. The only problem is I can't jump on the train and come and be there in a few hours:( I dont know what's going on inside but it's like one minute I feel fine because I know you are in good hands and you're happy now, but then there's times where it gets super hard for me and I just break down I dont know how to handle it i guess. but I guess we will have to see how true that saying it.."what don't kill you will only make you stronger" right? I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU SOO MUCH!!"

"Jackckie was one of the sweetest people I knew!My thoughts and prayers go out to all of her family!It is a very heartwrenching loss!"

"Nanny, just thought you should know that I can't stop thinking about you. I miss you soo much. I can't even believe it! I keep thinking about how when I was younger, everytime Daddy yelled at me or Mommy was mean to me I used to call you and Poppy and amazingly enough you were there to pick me up before I got a chance to hang up the phone. I really do consider myself lucky to have a Nanny like you. Oh boy you have no idea how much we miss you! Another thing I think about all time is how everytime i felt like it was the worst moment of my life or I was going through something that nobody understood... you were there and you knew exactly how i felt! One thing I will always and forever remember and use it as motivation in so many ways... the SECRET we share. You have gone through more than anyone I have ever met in my life. You are in deed the strongest person ever!!! && I love you for that and soo much more! your amazing Nanny. And I hope that I can make you proud of me! I'm doing all of what I told you I would. It feels so good to know that you are watching over me and making sure that I stay strong and focused! You're the best Nanny!!! ok well I could keep going but I need to get some shut eye, your lil Katie-did has work tomorrow! I love you and miss you soo much. p.s. tell poppy his Katie-did loves him to pieces and misses him so much!! G'NIGHT! "

"Hello beautiful, it felt so nice to finally see you yesterday! I hope that you like what me and your LiL Lisa did for you and poppy yesterday, and because im the one that helps you with your decorations I know that you love it as much as I do!!!! Its beautiful just like you. Well gorgeous I am in the car on my way to see that man right now but I had to stop and talk to you because I can't get you off of my mind and I wanted to tell you that I love you and miss you Nanny!!! Kiss Poppy for me ok. I will talk to you soon!"

"I love you and always will"

"~*~ Hello sweetness, I was just going through your pictures and wanted to tell you how beautiful you are. Even though you already know that.... I just wated to tell you that and also I will be ack tomorrow ok buttercup! I love you soooo much give poppy kisses for me k? GoodNight ~*~"

"~*~ Nanny, its getting harder by the minute to deal with what is in store for us all tomorrow.... Its been really hard for me to find a way to deal with whats going on and I know your looking down on me sayin "Jackie, everything is okay nanny is right here!" I know deep down you are but its still breaking my heart, I am dealing with this rather odd... The way I know how to, push everyone away and take it out on the ones that love me. I know they dont understand my actions but I know that you know this is what I do when I am in pain!! Noone will ever know me as well as you do and thats just fine with me:) I am one of a kind arent I?(whats my name?) I love you soo much nanny, if it wasnt for mommy and Sadeasia I would prolly jump in there with you and leave this place. I used to say that I had to get home to my three favorite girls cause they needed me.... now poppy has you in his arms again and I will continue to take care of mommy and Deas the best I can! I miss you nanny, till we meet again, when God calls me home, you will forever be in my heart and thoughts! ~*~"

"i love you nanny!"

"Hi Nanny! How are you doing? I was just thinking about you. I am at work right now and I was like hey i'm gunna go see what my nanny is up to so now i'm sitting in the back on the computer tlaking to you. I'm sorry that I didn't get to right to you last night. I was going to but I didn't get home till late and then I was like I will just write to her 2 times tomarro to make up for today. So here is my first thoughts to you and I will be back later tfor my second =) I miss you trribly! I can't beleave that it has been 9 days already! It flew by! I love you. Did you get to listen to that song yet? I'm sure that you did. Do you like it? Well I gotta get back to work I will talk to you later tonight. I gotta make the money for us you know! I promised you that we would go on a shopping spree when you get better and now your all better so it's time! I love you and miss you more than words can say tell poppy I love him and miss him to! I love you nanny.Be have yourself!"

"I Love You & Miss You Soo Much Nanny!!"

"Hello goregeous! How was your day? Mine was pretty good I worked 7-3 then went to daddys to show him up in fooseball like I told you i was going to do yesterday! He did beat me and Deb though but only a couple times. I missed you today. I thought about you alot. I listened to the song that I told you to listen to and I also listened to Me and God which I know was one of your favorites. I played that at the wake for you =) I'm sure that you already knew that though. I couldn't sleep very well last night. I kept waking up and thinking about you! You're always in my mind and I just want you to know that. I just got done printing out a picture of the cross that I got you. Oh and do you and Poppy want a christmas tree? Cause I know that you like the ones that are white and look like snow is on it. I'm going to get that for you! But only if you want me to. I figured that you are in a bunch of Christmas spirit now that you are going to be able to spend you Christmas with Poppy! I love you Nanny and miss you sooo much! I can't even put it into words! I talk about you to people all the time! It's crazy. You are the best Nanny anyone could ever ask for and I just want you to know that. I'm sure you already do though! Well it's almost past by bed time. I gotta wake up aat 5:30 am for school tomarrow. Goodnight and sweet dreams I will be seeing you in a little while. What do you want to go do tonight? Well i'll know when I close my eyes. Behave yourself! I lvoe you soooo much and miss you indescireably. Give Poppy a big hug and a kiss for me and tell him that I love him too. Goodnight Nanny. I love you."

"Mom ~ I will never forget the closeness we've shared this past year and I am so grateful for those memories you gave to me in just that short time. I will always hold in my heart the sound of your voice calling out "where's my Lisa" and "boy am I glad to see you" (when you couldn't even see me), and when I walked in your room you ask me if god gave me your message because you just prayed to him for me to come to be with you - and sure enough, every time you prayed I walked in shortly after! And although you couldn't see, you knew it was me because I greeted you with a "Hi beautiful"! You ARE beautiful inside and out and you will always be with me where ever I go! I love you so very much mom and I miss you with all my heart. You always worried that I would get sick of taking care of you and doing things for you, that you would let no one else do. . . well, I want you to know that not for one stinking minute did I ever complain or get tired of doing anything for you. If you were here for another hundred years, I would be right there with you. I wish you didn't leave me so soon but I am happy that you are suffering no more and that you are with the love of your life once again. I know dad was sitting right on that bench outside heavens gate waiting for the apple of his eye! I LOVE YOU BEAUTIFUL! Love always, your baby girl "

"Grandma, I may not be one of your real grandchildren but u have always treated me like one of your own. I love you very much and miss you. Krista "

"~*~ Hey buttercup.... how is everything going? I cant sleep for anything so I figured I would come say hello to my beautiful nanny! I miss you so much, I was just talkin to your lil Lisa and we are going to get you and poppy a christmas tree this year! One like you used to have for poppy every year... now you guys can enjoy it together! We are going to make it real pretty just the way you like it:) I am so excited, the first happy thought ive had about christmas yet this year. Just not the same without you and im trying to get in the spirit but its hard! I know you want me to keep it together because we have talked about this numerous times... but know that as hard as I try to keep your spirit of Christmas alive it will never amount to the joy you brought us around this time of year! I love you so much buttercup I hope you and poppy are catching up.... and I know you are:) dont have too much fun though (smile) I miss you.... GoodNight nanny XoXoXo ~*~"

"We send you lots of hugs and kisses mom. We are both so saddened that we didn't get a chance to see you before you left us. We love and miss you so much!! You will forever be in our hearts! "

"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU WERENT ONLY MY MOTHER YOU WERE MY BEST FRIEND.YOUR WITH DAD NOW-N- FOREVER."

"Nanny, I don't even know where to begin. when i got the phone call i didn't beleave what was being said to me. I kept saying no ur lieing and that you can't be gone. You fought an amazing fight and i thank you for that. You inspired me in every way and even know that you are gone you will always be with me and i will never forget that. This is deffinaltley the hardest thing that i have ever gone through and its extra hard for daddy as well. I never thought of the day this would happen. As much as i hate to admit it, i know that you are in a better place now feeling no pain and with the one who kept you going when you were down. I miss you so much nanny. You will always mean the world to me. Tell poppy that i love him and miss him yoo. Nothing is going to be the same without you. But i know for a fact that we will meet again some day. Just please watch over me and daddy he really needs you and so do I. I love you and always will. And your probably looking at all of us calling us all scumbags cause of all the sadness and i hope you are! Cause if you are i know that my nanny will never change! You were the best nanny anyone could ever ask for. I love you and miss you more than i can explain. I would write all day if I could cause it makes me feel like i'm talking to you. R.I.P nanny forever in our hearts. I love you "

"Hey Nanny! I'm at work right now so I can't really talk much but I just wanted to let you know I have been thinking about you like crazy! I didn't know it was possible to miss someone this much.. I'm coming to see you and Poppy this weekend. I'm gonna sit my fat butt right in the middle of both you..hopefully me and Jackie show up at diffenrent times because I doubt there is enough room for the both of us :) I love you so much Nanny! Gotta gor for now though. Buh bye for now lovey!!!"

"Why hello there Nanny! How was your day? Mine was actually pretty good! It went by pretty fast. Thought about you again all dayyyyyyy long! What a surprise right? Am I always going to be able to write to you on here i wonder? I sure do hope so! Today was my first day back to cheer practice and my coach asked how I was doing. She said to me " How are you? You have been the talk of the school lately." you know cause of you! and she was like so all the kids are saying how close you were with your Nanny and I was like yupp I sure was! =) I'm telling you this because when I talk about you now it sends chills through my body. Weird right? I don't know why but it does. Before when you were in the hospital and when you first passes away it was hard for me to talk about you because I would always get upset. But now it's like a relief because when I am tlaking about you I know that you are listening to every word that I am saying. I got to say though it does make me miss you but I will never ever stop missing you. I will promise you that. Not at least until I can finally be with you again! One of these days I am going to try a new method and start writing to you in a journal or just sit by my bed and talk to you to see if that works as much as typing to you on the computer does. As a matter of fact I am going to do that tomarrow and if you respond to me I know that you can always here me and know what I am always thinking! Well I could write to you forever and ever but I am going to go. I'm going to do get a drink and then go lay down and watch t.v. I will be seeing you in a little while when I close my eyes! I love you and miss you sooooooo much! I can't even explain it. Goodnight Nanny sweet dreams. Give Poppy a hug and a kiss for me. I lvoe you."

"R.I.P Nanny we all love you and miss you!! Now u can be with the love of your life "

" As we weave through the lives of others we leave within them heartprints, just as they do when they walk through ours. It is of no small significance, therefore, that we all are more aware of the impressions and memories we leave in another?s heart, because just like footprints, they can be traced back and retell whatever story was told by their path in an individual?s heart Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart? you left yours in mine i will miss you so very much i do know we will meet again in a better place earth is just part time with the Lord is never ending. Love You Carol The Good one"

"~*~ Hello gorgeous how are you? I am so tired from work and I went and had some drinks tonight so im a lil extra tired!!! I know you havent been sleeping at all huh? I dont blame you babe! I wish I could go without sleeping but I cant beacuse I become so cranky! I wanted to stop by and tell you that I didnt talk to you last night because we lost power and didnt get it bakk until tonight but I was still thinking about you and that I love you so much not a day goes by where I dont think about you nor talk to you..... I miss you so much nanny:( and I hope to see you soon, I love you kiss poppy for me ok? GoodNight ~*~"

"You are such a lovely sister and i am so glad to have grown up with you. You always took good care of me. Sonny and I have many Great memories with You and Joe. words can not explain how much i will truly miss you! love you sis"

"Today is 9 days that you have been gone and we all miss you dearly. I continue to hold our recent memories in my heart and include you and dad in my prayers every night. I know how much you loved the poem I wrote dad the night he died and you used to read it often so I changed it from dad to mom for you because you too are now free! Fly like and Eagle Mommy! Now you are gone, away to heaven you went. My heart is now weeping and my mind so bent. Sometimes I wonder.. . Is this a dream, am I asleep? Wake me lord so I won't weep. I know this is real, that you are not here. But I am so tired of shedding a tear. You filled my heart, with laughter and love, and now you are gone and as free as a dove. I know you are happy, and free from all pain, and I will see you again. . . that much I will gain. But I am so sad and my heart is so broken, for my idol is gone, the lord has spoken. You are in good hands now and that much I know. So I will say goodbye, I must let you go. My heart is now open, for it has and empty space. But it will heal in time, because I know again, I will see your face. So fly like and eagle mommy, like an angel with her wing. I will think of you often, more than the birds can sing. I love you Mom! Love your baby girl!"

"Hey lovey! I just came to say good night i love you and miss you soo much!!! I'll talk to you tomorrow!"

"Nanny I love you so much!! I try to remind myself that you are in a better place now and no longer suffering.... and plus with poppy, but I still miss you so much and wonder why you had to go so soon!! You will always be in my thoughts and prayers I love you always.... Kiss poppy for me and tell him I love him, he has been waiting eight years to hold you in his arms again! I love you both so much "

"IM DREADING THE FIRST CHRISTMAS OF MY ENTIRE LIFE WITHOUT YOU NANNY. IT'S NOT THE SAME @ ALL. I'M NOT EVEN INTO IT THIS YEAR. USUALLY GOING TO YOUR HOUSE AND HELPING DECORATE, WRAPPING GIFTS AND SHOPPING WITH YOU MADE ME FEEL ALL CHRISTMAS-Y(I DON'T THINK THAT'S A WORD) BUT I DON'T HAVE THAT NOW SO IT'S JUST ANOTHER DAY TO ME. OKAY WELL I GOTTA GO FOR NOW BUT I'LL BE BACK. I PROMISE! I LOVE YOU NANNY. DON'T MISS ME AS MUCH AS I MISS YOU.. IT HURTS"

"Her journey just begun Dont think of her as gone away Her journeys just begun, life holds so many facets.. this life is only one. just think of her resting from the sorrows and tears in a place of warmth and comfort there are no days and years. Think how she must be wishing that we could know today, how nothing but are sadness can really pass away. And think of her as living in the heart of those she touched... And she was loved so much. My Prayer's are with you All. God Bless Carol Kovacs(Ostrander) And Family "

"I almost forgot!! Bruce just reminded me of the Butterflies! I did the energy healing for you every night, remember? And I told you to close your eyes and picture butterflies where ever your pain was and visualize all those butterflies flying away with all your pain into the universe. You always told me that you felt better the next day! I wish I did it more for you because I would have loved for those butterflies to carry away every ounce of pain you had and still have you here with me. Now, you have no pain, but you not here with me either. I chuckle every time I think of those times because when ever you told me you were in pain I said "How can you make it feel better?" And you would say "Think of my butterflies". Well every time I see a butterfly, I will think of you! So, instead of flying like an eagle. . . . FLY LIKE A BUTTERFLY MOMMY! I love you beautiful!"

"MERRY CHRISTMAS NANNY!!! I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH!!!!"

"NANNY~~ I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU so much already! "

"~*~ Hey buttercup.... you look so beautiful today, who did your hair? Nanny, I miss you to pieces... I wonder how you are doing up there and what you and poppy are getting yourselves into? I can picture you in your beautiful white dress nanny, you look so gorgeous! Feels good to be free again huh? I love that wonderful smile of yours that is finally back on your face, just like old times. You are simply the best and always will be in my eyes....well have to get back to work today, had enough of this couch already:)just wanted to drop by first and tell you how much I love you and miss you. Talk to you soon nanny! MUAAAAHZ ~*~ P.S. Did you get a chance to hear that song Britt requested? Bottom of the ocean? Man nanny you are going to love it! Its absolutely amazing.... I heard it last night before I closed my eyes. So as soon as you get a chance listen to it ok!? Give poppy kisses for me! ~*~"

"Hey Nanny, I just heard that song Brittany was telling you about. I love it! Just thought you should know that. && you already know this but i'm gonna tell you again and probably a million times more I LOVE YOU NANNY! "

"well nanny i haven't written to you in over a year i just read my last message to you and that was on december 8 or 2008. But believe me when i tell you i have NOT stopped thinking about you and i still miss you more and more everyday. i never thought loosing someone would ever be this hard. Sometimes when i think about you i just want to break down and cry but i know that you would never want me to do that whenever i use to get up set you always use to tell me how you hated to see me cry so i am trying my hardest right now to hold back the tears as i write to you. dont even know here to begin i feel like so much has happend since you have been gone. you really must look over me every single day and give me the best life has to offer because everything has been going so perfect for me and i just wish that you were here with me to spend all of the joy that i know you and poppy brought to me. tomarrow is my 17th birthday already nanny! can you believe it! if there was anything in the world that i was to ask for and that i could have would be to spend the day with you! i miss you so much i dont think anyone understands. but i have so much to tell you! first i should start with telling you that i have an amazing boyfriend and we have been dating for over a year now. i know that you would absolutely admire him nanny! i never thought that i could love someone so much until i met him and i know that you always told me that noone will ever be good enough for me but nanny believe me when i tell you i think that i found him =) i tell him all the time how much i wish he could meet you and how crazy you were. his family would have fit write in with you! lets see... i finally got my liscens and a car too nanny! i remember how much i couldnt wait for that day to finally come and it did! time is just flying by im graduating from high school in less than a year already nanny! i have been looking at colleges and trying to figure out whta i want to make a career in and its so much harder than i ever thought it was going to be there's just so much to choose from! you always use to tell me where ever i was going to college you were going to come with me and i was going to take care of you and we are still going to mkae that come true cause you are with me no matter where i am and you always will be! i am going to also try to play softball in college i have been going to clinics to try to get scouted to get a scholarship for it too! so much is happening and im so scared that im not going to make the right choice on going to a college and i know if i tell you you will understand and i know that mommy will 2 but i know she is stressed with it all 2 so i am trying to do my best and stay strong and i know with the help of you and poppy above me i will make the right decision! im sorry that i havent been over to see you in a while there has just been so much going on and i know you understand and i know that you know i am always thinking about you.every morning i walk in my closet and see that big college i made of us that i had hanging at you services! by the way i have a huge walk in closet now for all of my tons of clothes and shoes that i use to bring when we would go on vacation! and i have our big collage in there because as you probably no that is where i spend most of my time =) all of the holidays that have past have not been the same with out you! daddy needs yours and poppys help too nanny i dont really go over to his house much because he has been drinking a lot lately but i do have to say you would be proud of him for having the sasme house on his own with a ton of help from deb! so in that sense he is doing good and i am proud of him but he needs a lot of help with his drinking i just ahte to see him drink his life away and that is what he is doing and i know witht he help from you and poppy he can get better! i was just at the gym and i have a whole playlist on my ipod of songs that remind me of you and i have to say that i like every country song ever make! but i was just listening to all of those songs while i was getting my workout on =) there is a new song that came out a month or 2 ago by josh turner and i know how much you love that deep voice of his! it's called why don't we just dance it's such a good song and i know that you would like it! oh yeah i got a new job i don't work at dunkin donuts anymore either nanny i work at rite aid now and it's so much better cause now i don't smell like coffee eevrytime i am done working =p but i know how much you loved me working there cause i always got you those little chocolate munchkins and a coffee but i will still always get that stuff for you if you want it! anything my nanny wants my nanny gets as she use to tell me =)well nanny i think i have filled you in on just about all the good stuff if i think of anything else i will be sure to let you know! i hope you and poppy had a good valentines day together! i will be sure to save you a piece of chocolate cake from my birthday tomarrow cause i know how much you love chocolate! or maybe i will make you some brownies and bring them to you =) you can have the whole batch for yourself! well im going to relax a little before i have to go to work nanny! i love you and miss you with more than all of my heart! you are always with me no matter where i am! i never stop thinking about you and i'm sure you know that because i know that you are always looking over me! i love you so much nanny i wish i could give you a big hug right now! give poppy a hug and a kiss for me! i lvoe you both with everything i have! "

"~*~ Hey gorgeous just wanted to stop by and tell you that I will see you tomorrow!!! Me and your lil Lisa are going to get your tree and bring it over, we are going to try and get you and poppy a real one ok? I know that you will both like that. Well gonna go and read myself to sleep:) I love you and miss you to pieces! Muahz GoodNight.... dont forget to kiss Poppy for me ok. ~*~"

"Well, my beautiful mother~ Tomorrow is the day we will lay you to rest and I have to tell you, I really don't want to do it. I wish I could just take you from that dark room and bring you home with me. I would wrap you tight in my blankets and snuggle with you forever keeping you so warm and comfortable. I would kiss you every day and tell you how much you mean to me and I would whisper in your ear every chance I had "I Love you Mommy". The thought of you being tucked away in that cold dark place is just so unbearable - but I keep reminding myself that it's just the body that god gave your soul for a dress rehersal during your time here on earth that's going away. I know with out a shadow of a doubt that you are with each and every one of us and you will continue to guide us, along with dad, down life's highway. I am so grateful AND HONORED to have your soul with me during my journey through life. I love you more than you could ever imagine loving someone, my dearest mother. Please tell dad that daddy's little girl still rubs his belly(in my mind) and pouts when I don't get my own way - and by george, I get it! :) And tell him I am still picking up all those penny's he keeps leaving me. I've been putting them in the jar you one playing Bingo - ooops did I say that too loud?! Everyone knows how you hated Bingo! I figured with all those penny's he's leaving me, I should be able to retire by the time I'm 85! lol Well, goodnight beautiful! I love you both bunches!"

"nanny i hope that you know how much i love and miss you..everyone keeps telling me that i should be happy for you because you are in a better place with poppy now and you arent suffering anymore but i cant help but to feel crushed inside..i know that you are with poppy now and it is his time to take care of you again and i will see you guys again one day and until that day comes i just want you to know that i love you more than anyone can ever imagine and i only because i miss you more and more each day..i will miss your hugs and kisses and your vioce..nanny please tell poppy that i miss him very very much and give him a kiss for me. every day i find pennies that poppy leaves for me but now i know that when i find them there will be two of them one that he left and one that you left. i love you my nanny...love always and forever your lil lisa"

"God be with you! Sending our prayers and sympathy to my friend Lisa Smith and to her family from all of us!"

"well nanny I know it's been a while todays your birthday! i just wanted to stop by and wish you a happy birthday. make it the best one yet nanny! i wish i could be with you to spend it. I will be some day again i can promise you that. It's been hard lately without you. I think about you non stop and miss you like crazy. I'm a senior this year nanny can you believe it? I graduate from high school in 7 months. It's finally my time! I could have went to pace and played softball like i have always wanted to and you were going to come with me but i went and visited the capmus and I didnt really like it. So i think i'm going to go to st rose in albany but i know that no matter where I go ill always have you =) i'm going to come visit you today. I have something for you too but i dont think it came in yet im sure you will love it though!i love you nanny. everything i do reminds me of you. this is when i need you and poppy the most and you have been doing an amazing job keeping my head up!I love you nanny i cant wait to see you today tell poppy i love him too and he better give you the best birthday ever! i know he will so i probably dont even have to tell you to tell him that! not a day goes by that i dont think of you. nothing will ever be the same with out you nanny. I love you with all my heart and if i could have anytrhing it would be to have you back again. I love you and I always will. "

"~*~ Too many thoughts running through my head right now and im not quite sure how to deal with them..... I am trying so hard to not feel this way because I know that you are happy once again and painless, it just hurts so much to know that I can never hold you in my arms again, help you to prepare and cook holiday meals, freeze my tushy off hanging up christmas lights! I remember two years ago when I was hanging the ones over your picture window and the bells kept falling off!! That wasnt the funny part the funny part was me tryin to put them back and I fell off the chair..lol.. I will never forget you nanny or all of the memories you hold in my heart, you are and will always be the greatest nanny ever! I LOVE YOU ~*~"

"I did not know Jacqueline but I am a friend of Dana. My condolences to the whole family. "