" This is something I wrote and posted and my Facebook tonight after I heard of his passing. I worked with Jerry years ago at Four Star and he was a great influence at that time in my life. I regret not telling him so later in life. My deepest condolences to his family...
Jerry
They say a job is only as good as its boss. This isn't necessarily true. While it's unlikely to have a good job with a bad boss, it's entirely possible to have a bad job with a good boss. I had that job. I had it because one night Jerry Shenk finished going through 24 applications and decided that in all that stack of paper possibility, there was one he thought -for whatever reason- had a little bit more possibility than the rest. Then he picked up the phone in that dusty back office and called my number.
He never told me precisely what it was that made his fingers press those particular numbers in that particular order, but it must have been something. Because not only did he hire me for what was at the time a very enviable position at Four Star Video Heaven, he took special care to teach me what he could, and make sure I was doing the kind of job he seemed to know I could do.
It was a popular video store just off State Street in Madison, a haven not only for film wanna-bes and might-someday-bes, but for all of Madison's liberal elite. "Four stars to Four Star" as their t-shirts bragged Roger Ebert had once said. It was culture shock to me, coming to Madison for college from a very unliberal Lutheran boarding school where our most popular rentals would undoubtedly be burned for heresy.
It started out more than well enough, as the excited film geeks behind the counter who would become my friends fed me tape after tape, sparking flint on a love of movies began by my father, who was always a sucker for a Saturday matinee. Jerry didn't hand me a list; it was an bright blue aura of movie love that was always around him, that you couldn't avoid getting on your hands or your shoes and taking home with you.
He looked like a cross between Santa Claus and Jerry Garcia, and seemed to carry traits of both, with Santa Claus' temperament and Jerry Garcia's T-shirt collection. He was patient and jolly, and if he frowned that image is long gone from my mind. The night I got to meet and have a conversation with Gregory Peck, the night I decided for sure I would major in film, I walked straight from the Union Theater, up Langdon and down Henry and into Four Star to tell him first.
Eventually, things darkened, as the Too Good tends to do. The film geeks left, one by one, and film cynics took their place. The lists and hearty debates tapered, replaced by criticism and condescension from the replacements, sometimes right to the customers' faces. I did my best to stick it out, but the gears had shifted, and the machine slowly began to churn against me. I would arrive at work to hear some faceless customer had complained about my rudeness, or a deeply uncharacteristic comment I had made to one of the other managers. Jerry knew better, that these reports had either been misdirected at me or simply spun from air. He stood up for me, at risk to his own security, but the powers above him had other ideas.
He was sad to see me go, and said so, but he knew I'd be okay. And he was right. I ended up a couple blocks down the road, at a unassuming Blockbuster tucked under an apartment building, in what became perhaps the best job I ever had, with passionate film folk whom I call friends to this day, who fed my hunger for movies and fanned the flames that had dimmed.
I saw Jerry only a handful of times after that. Heard he finally left that place, heard he got a job managing a store on the west side. Heard he was showing off great films on the local news. Years later I came across a book written by a coworker from Four Star, with a fictionalized version of that darker time, and what was less a fictionalized version of Jerry than an outright smear against him. I was furious. I wanted to write to Jerry about it, use it an excuse to talk to him again, to see how he was doing, and what else he thought I should watch. But I never did.
The last time I saw him wasn't in person. It was on TV, on the local news, still shining light on great films for the Madison community. And I thought to myself again that I should write to him, to thank him, for believing in me at a time when so much for me was the New and Unsure.
But I didn't.
All I can really do now is let others know what a kind gentle soul he was, how a jolly beard and belly hid a passion that I know never waned, a passion that I know lives on in me and others who knew him and loved him and learned from him. So that will be my toast to him, not with champagne or wine, but with the opening credits to a movie I've never seen before, some undiscovered gem, and the two hours of escapist fun that he brought to so many so many times over the years. And to know that someday, if ever my story is told, of who I am and the people responsible for it, his name will be there in the credits.
Miss ya, Jerry, and thanks.
Peter J. Fabian"